have faith bigger than your fears

faith bigger than my fears

have faith bigger than your fearsLately I keep seeing picture-quotes about “having faith bigger than your fears” and they always make me so happy. Why?

1. It sounds so simple, so wise.
2. It seems romantic.
3. It’s exactly what I need to do.

1. Faith v. Fear | Great wisdom, but wait… 

In church the other day, the pastor pointed out these definitions:

fear: the belief that something unseen will come true
faith: the belief that something unseen will come true

I was confused for a while until I learned the difference. Faith is having absolute trust that God’s plan will work out as it’s meant to be (including timing).

2. Yes please to romance.

For some reason I hear this quote about faith and I just picture this incredible future, full of joy and love and confidence that everything will be okay. Not perfect, I know that…but it will be as it was meant to be.

And, if possible, I don’t want fear to get in the way.

3. I need to quit the drama and be done living each day in fear.

Ugh, here we go: my insecurities about my body, my anxiety about things being out of my control, worrying that I’ll get my heart broken again, etc.

My fears are getting in the way of a joyful future (see #2). It’s heavy to carry around and I don’t think faith and fear can coexist. So, I need to ditch one.

Over & Done, It’s Not Me, It’s You…

Dear Fear,

I’ve had enough. The only person that is going to let my past ruin my future is you. So, I have to let you go.

I choose faith. I choose to be happy. I choose to believe in God’s plan (and timing). I choose to believe so deeply in what’s to come that I won’t allow you to get in my way.

So that’s it. I’m breaking up with you and starting a new romance with faith. And, I decided this, um… this morning when I woke up.

Xo, Melanie

P.s. I’m already living with faith… too soon? Too bad.

Insta-Brave?

As much as I wish I could.. I’m not saying I’m instantly SuperWoman (although I love her style). Rather, each day I’m going to try to be less fearful.

Instead, I’ll be more faithful. More confident. More relaxed. More trusting. More brave. So as my faith grows, my fears will fade.

And, I’m ready… Shall we?

Piney River Ranch

falling in love (truly, madly, deeply)

Oh, What an Adventure It’s Been

January 2014 began a whole new chapter for me. I packed up my life in LA on a whim to start fresh in Denver, CO. I didn’t have somewhere to live, I didn’t say goodbye to everyone and to be honest, I wasn’t ready to move away.

Af first, I was broken. Broken-hearted and unsure of who I was and what I was capable of.
Also, I was hesitant. Hesitant that compared to LA, I would be bored in Denver. (Sorry Denver, but I’ll redeem myself soon)
Then, I was scared. Scared I wasn’t strong enough to start fresh on my own and scared of the unknown.
And, I was sad. Sad to leave my LA friends, my life and my unfulfilled LA bucket-list.

Now, I realize this move, and all that it encompased, was an opportunity for me to find my joy again. And oh, how I was wrong about Colorado…

Falling in Love with Life in Colorado

Downtown Vail

A quiet morning in downtown Vail

Earlier this year I promised that I would make this the best year. This self-made promise has been a great reminder to always say “yes” to new experiences so that I would really make the most of this year.

And, to be completely honest, I cannot even begin to tell you how delighted I’ve been lately.

I’ve loved the opportunity for a fresh start here in Colorado, the chance to heal and become a better me, new adventures and experiences, rekindling my faith, taking care of my mind and body, meeting incredible people and the joy I’ve found in my heart. All of this coupled with an incredible state of beauty and this adventure has me falling in love with Colorado, hard.

And, I just can’t get enough.

My Colorado Happy List

The view from the top of vail mountain

A peaceful moment at the top of Vail

A close friend introduced me to the concept of a “happy list.” To create this list is to remember the little things in life that bring us joy each day. To count our blessings and remember that happiness is sometimes made up of many little moments.

And, while it’s a forever-project, I thought I’d share a few things on my current Colorado Happy List:

  • the crisp, fresh mountain air in the mornings
  • a chocolate-covered coffee bean on caribou coffee mochas
  • a really intense trail run in Boulder with Ruth
  • chilly mornings spent waiting in line at Snooze, coffee mug in hand
  • running in colorado and colorado runners
  • the spring storms that scare and excite you at the same time
  • hip hop classes with the ladies, followed by mimosas and a night out
  • breathtaking sunsets at Daniels Park, or anywhere for that matter
  • the crunch of fresh snow on the coldest days of winter
  • the sounds of downtown Denver in the evening
  • seeing Stig come alive on hikes, in dog parks and running in open spaces
  • Subaru’s and Subaru drivers… it’s what makes colorado, colorado
  • all the free poop bags ( <—it’s the truth, deal with it)
  • Linger rooftop and a hand crafted cocktail at the end of the day
  • anytime I look up and am awed by the beauty of the rockies

Living Without Darkness.

It is in our darkest moments that we must focus on the light. And, some say, that the stars cannot shine without darkness.

So, here I am. I’ve had my darkest moments and now I’m ready to shine and come out stronger than I’ve ever been.

Now I feel alive, like I’m finally living life again. I feel happy. I feel blessed. I feel ready to take on the world. And, I feel like for the first time in a while, I’m exactly where I’m supposed to be.

Xoxo,

Melanie

Piney River Lake near Vail

Piney River Lake near Vail

love your life

losing who you are…

I’ve had a lot of conversations in the past few months with friends regarding people “losing themselves,” being defined by whatever is going on in their lives… children, animals, fitness, etc. Conversations, social media outlets, photos…they all so accurately reflect our current fascinations.

And these expressions seem to really gets on people’s nerves for some reason.

Somehow, I find myself really defensive when this topic comes up. It’s probably because I know it’s something I do as well… dating, my dog, marriage, running, divorce, God…you name it. I quickly let my identity be overtaken in the excitement of whatever new chapter is upon me.

Guilty as charged.

Their Highlights v. Your Behind-The-Scenes

I post tons of photos of my dog and talk about him all lot. I feel guilty after I post a photo from a run but I just want to share the beauty along my path. And, honestly I don’t like feeling bad about it.

Nor do I want to feel guilty not blatantly posting the bad in my life. I believe in good energy and don’t want to bring others down for no reason. So, while I’m not hiding any secrets, I still remember to never compare my life with other’s, and vice versa.

But why is this so bothersome to some?

I can’t quite figure it out.

Are you obsessed because you’re posting baby photos to your Facebook feed (or dog photos <–guilty)? Have you lost yourself in your relationship because your profile picture is you and your partner (rather than just you)? Are you vain for posting fitness photos on Instagram?

No.

I’m realizing that it doesn’t mean you’re losing yourself at all.

Rather, you’re finding yourself in your present journey.

It’s defining the person that you are today, your passions, loves, and struggles. It’s being present in the moment, regardless of what others think about you. It’s embracing your beliefs and simply, embracing you.

And, it’s sharing your life with the world.

So cheers to loving the life you live, and letting other’s lose their way onto their newest path,

Xo Melanie

love your life

a moment in the park

a moment in the park

Fridays I like to take a break and head out for some nature time with Stig. Today, somehow, someway, I was able to snap a photo of him by my favorite tree.

They represent peace and life. And, to me, they’re absolutely stunning.

Wishing you the loveliest of weekends.

Xo,
Melanie

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waiting for winter to pass

waiting for spring to pass through

Not all days are good, but most are.

Some days are a little gloomy, inside and outside. And with winter slowly seeing its way out, spring has never been more welcomed. Meanwhile, I’m learning to see the beauty in the gloom and keep my eyes on the horizon for better, brighter days.

I hope that somehow you see the beauty in the storm, too.
colorado windmill

Cheers to a lovely spring.

Xo,
Melanie

lil guy is all grown up

Happy Birthday Stig Nation!

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Stig as a pup and all grown up.

As today is Stig’s 2nd Birthday, I thought I would write about how far he’s come (rather than making a homemade bday cake, putting a hat on him and making him pose).

Feels like just the other day he was 16 pounds and easy to carry around. 60 pounds later he’s finally grown up and still causing trouble.

And, while he’s not been the easiest pup to raise, he’s worth it.

A Little Training Goes a Long Way

Thanks to Rocky Mountain Dog Training, his trainer Melinda, and a lot of hard work, Stig finished his private lessons last week. We worked on loose-leash walking, impulse control (for when he sees other dogs, rabbits or squirrels), and some fun tricks too (notice the “easy” button in the photos).

Next up I’d like to get him certified as a Canine Good Citizen and eventually a Therapy Dog by his 3rd Birthday. So, here goes to more hard work!

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Man’s Best Friend, and More

lebkuchen_loft_stig_bdayIt’s definitely true what they say. Somehow this four-legged guy has not only been a good companion, he’s given me a lot of strength lately…

Sometimes I think God gave me Stig as a reminder to be strong in times when I need it most. Because, with a tough past year, whenever I’m sad or lonely I’d look around and he’s right there…

Xo,
Melanie

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calm before the storm

beauty in simplicity

I can’t seem to help myself from taking photos constantly. And while often they are far from perfect and very simple, they still help me hold on to memories.

This morning I left for a jog and snapped this photo on my way to the trail. You can see the storm in the clouds but it was still a beautiful almost-spring morning.

Just before I got to my halfway point it started to snow, hard. With police monitoring the path, sleet, wind, and unprepared running attire, it definitely ended up being a very memorable, mentally challenging experience (that i’m glad is over).

But of course, there’s the beauty in those types of memories too.

calm before the storm

xo,
Melanie

Broomfield Colorado Open Space Sunset

open space and a heavenly sunset

They say running is the best therapy… and they’re right.

I needed a little cheering up today so I took out the running leash, grabbed my furry-trainer and we headed out to the nearest “open-space.” They have these spaces throughout the Denver communities and they are simply divine (whomever made reserved open space a priority… thank you)!

It may not be the Pacific sunsets which I miss more than I can express, but today it was my solace. I made it out right before sunset and stopped halfway around to snap this picture to share.

Broomfield Colorado Open Space Sunset

Now I’m refreshed, the pup is tired, and I’m ready for my sweat pants and a little relaxing.

Wishing you all a lovely evening,
<3 Melanie

a 2 degree sunrise

I’ve been working really hard to get into a good gym routine, and it’s been a challenge. There are many reasons why I’ve always been scared of them (people, germs, and the fact that I look ridiculous trying to do pullups). But! With the help of my Brother and Sister-in-Law Ruth, we’ve been making it happen.

My reward for baring the 2 degree temperature at 6am this morning (other than the $1.25 Mochaccino while exiting the rec center)?

This moment.
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Wishing you the best Friday and weekend,
Xo Melanie